Ratter; //I see what you are saying now! Once you become a believer, you will never become a non believer! That's why we call it brainwashing!//
Not only are you incapable of embracing religion, hampered as you are by your constant demand for "proof", you don't even understand your own terminology;
#brain•wash•ing
(ˈbreɪnˌwɒʃ ɪŋ, -ˌwɔ ʃɪŋ)
n.
1. a method for systematically changing attitudes or altering beliefs, esp. through the use of torture, drugs, or psychological-stress techniques.#
This is not the method by which I came to it, quite the opposite, more like that employed by the uncomprehending, I describe above.